Part I Draft 1 2:09 am May 24, 2012 


Its utterly heart wrenching and exquisitely exasperating to be ceaselessly devoted to you purely for the indescribable reason of deeply yearning to understand the distorted, narcissistic puzzle of brilliance in your inconceivable mind.

My perception grows blurry as interactions grow increasingly inconsistent as I am irrational and drunk on dissatisfaction, and overly rational ill on scarce fragments of communication.

Despite constant disappointment I continue on my elongated quest for answers, ‘til I find there are no answers, only self inflicted illusions and delusions of you and i; and never us; a complicated series of almost interactions.

Ultimately I stand alone, praying to Your God that If I linger near by for awhile longer, thoughts of my own famished body, my parched soul may find itself in your mind, just as fully as thoughts of yours have unknowingly occupied the once vast and vacant space in mine.